- Tue Dec 06, 2022 12:12:43 pm
#75426
1. Boom! First tribal and you’re already in the jury. Congratulations!! Was that news confidence- or terror-inducing?
wow im so good; jury already? actually killing it!
Everything is confidence inducing! im not worried at all about being in the jury portion now, just pure excitement!
2. The vote was 9-1 tonight, any surprises there?
nope! i guess just surprised that there were 2 people who didnt vote. While a unan tribal against an inactive was blessed for me bc i really wanted to actually make it thru one of those thing - it is kinda boring. James and the alliance of 6 is proposing just sticking to that format for now, with voting out Syndey next. I guess rodney is the other least active to people so that's what i'd assume would be plan b?
Idk tho, i understand that its the simple thing to do, and often simpler is smarter. But i wanna have fun too and sometimes being dumb is fun. I just dont really wanna vote out syndey if being here would be a good distraction for her. If she herself thinks that splitting her time is too much thats one thing, but i haven't gotten that indication.
3. What do you believe your position in the game is at this moment? Are you in a good position or on shaky ground?
I think im in the middle-ish. Bottom middle. I'm in an alliance which is slay, but im not calling any sort of shots and just going along with stuff for now. James is taking on that leadership role which i have no problem with. I suppose in a shorter game there's less risk with that, bc there's less time for your target to build up. But me and Paul have been talking about how James is kinda the ring-leader rn and talks w mike a lot. So im a self aware middle of the barrel player rn. Theres also obvi other alliances i'm not a part of so clearly im not at the top of it all. Im okay with that for now tho.
I've also been lowkey busy IRL, always busy closer to the holidays. Because of that i don't feel like i've been able to chat as much as others, and def not as much as i'd like! I think theres always lots of convos happening after i fall asleep but i need sleep LOL! So goals for today and tomorrow will be to talk more!
My biggest fear is you ask me back and im just a lump on the season. I want to give this game the respect it deserves and be very active! But I still need to balance that with my real life and making sure i set appropriate boundaries for my sanity.
4. Who do you want to bring with you to the end and who do you feel is more expendable?
i'd say its too early to be asking this but we are in merge now huh? Well my heart wants to take Paul to the end! I just love the guy! But i'm always adaptable with that bc so rarely does one get their way in these things.
expendable, for me would be Voce bc of the bounty - but i like my k-town bud. Sydney would have been but her reason for being inactive makes sense and i just don't have it in me to say "sorry about all that girl, but bye!" - also imo rodney is just as inactive so not sure why James wants to go syndey over rodney. So i'll have to look into that.
and finally james/mike! I genuinely want to work with these guys but it can't be long term. They're always gonna be more visible than me which plays well to a jury, and at this point have much more social capital that they may be better suited as short term allies.
But the question of "who is expendable" to me is really anyone but Paul. It's a short game the bonds wont be that deep, they'll all have to go.
5. Who do you think won the first bounty? What do you think the prize was?
idk who won it since we were ALL okay with voting carolyn. Whoever had her as their bounty was one lucky duck. well... 8 is the luckiest number... Paul picked 8... Paul had Carolyn's bounty confirmed!
The prize i got no clue. My mind goes to typical survivor stuff; extra vote, steal a vote, idol clue, challenge advantage... i really don't know and could talk in circles tryna theorize. So for now it's just gonna be a slight musing at the back of my mind but nothing more.
6. Compared to last season, how is your overall stress level so far?
Well last season my hands couldn't stop shaking the entire time, so we're doing much better! Im in my "no stress" era - its just not fun to be stressed so im just not gonna do it. I'll be paranoid but not stressed. Since at the end of the day this is just a game!
I think my main stressor would lie outside of the game, and that's just audience perception. Again im trying not to think or care about what people think of me! I know its natural to care about that on some level; we'd all love to read back on the season and see people rooted for us or enjoyed watching us play. But again, if i think too much about what u all think of me than i won't be playing as myself, or i'll let the game pass me by! Biggest worry is that everyone just thinks im boring lol! But does it really matter? If i just play my best, talk to cool people, and have fun - then i'm satisfied!
